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jika kita terlalu memikirkn yg dirisaukan kita lupa pada kegembiraan di depan mata.. lari dari kenyataan.. hidup dalam kesulitan yg x berkesudahan.. menjalankan pemikiran panjang tentang cara dan penyelesaian.. sedang jika untuk seketika kita pekakkan telinga.. alih pandangan dari memandang kesulitan.. jalannya terbuka luas dengan pelbagai pilihan... jiwa yg kusut itu jika dibiar sakitnya melarat ke tempat lain dan menyusahkan diri sendiri.. jika lari yg kau perlu maka lari.. jika abai yg terbaik maka abaikan.. jika diam yg harus maka diamkan.. buat apa yg kau yakin dgnnya kerana di dunia ini tiada manusia yg lebih tahu tentang dirimu melainkn dirimu sendiri..
      sudahlah berduka.. sudahlah memikirkan yg x perlu.. bebas bebaskan.. jiwa kau terlalu risau.. jika jalan itu harus begitu ia takkan berubah.. kau tahu bila kau harus berhenti.. dan kau pernah beritahu aku ini semua sementara.. tapi kenapa kau biarkn dia berlanjutan? sudah.. sudah.. aku menyerah.. hahahaha.. nmpknya aku sudah menerima kafarah dari tindakanku yg dulu.. dan aku sesali .. dan jika masih mampu.. utk yg terakhir kalinya aku ingin memohon maaf utk segalanya.. wan... yani mintak maaf kalau ada salah silap yg yani dah buat.. maybe dlm x sedar yani dah buat wan sakit hati.. so here i am saying i'm sorry.. yes we can be friend but not more than that.. and don't be too nice with me.. it might get me wrong... treat me like you treat other friends don't spoil me..
      to daisy.. stop bother about me.. and if i did bother you.. i'm sorry.. and here i said i'll get over that feeling soon so that it won't trouble anyone.. and to wish us to be like before.. what a fool of me after what i've done.. and i'm kneeling on my knee asking for your forgiveness.. and i'll be gone now.. this will be the last time i hurt you (i wish so).. so live without hesitation.. live without worries... i'm fine... i will finally set myself free... i never hate you.. and i hope you'll never hate me..
      i try to correct things.. but it didn't work out.. and i'm wrong, i admit.. and i'm sorry.. and to the rest that i might have hurt you without realizing .. i'm sorry too.. i'm so so so so sorry.. i wanna start living again.. for this whole time i'm dying thinking of any ways to work things out.. but i just make it worse.. so please release me.. and my promise.. i'll try to fulfill it.. just the way we dream for.. i'll make it work.. i'll try hard... by the time pass you'll forget me.. but i will never able to forget you ..
   now it's time for me to accept the fact that everything i love will be taken away one by one.. and i'm prepare to accept it.. Ya Allah make me strong.. please make me strong.. and forgive me.. it's time to move on.. we need to keep move on.. and if one day we'll meet again.. i wish you all forget and erase all my mistake.. and if it's hard.. erase me instead..
    dan terlalu biasa ditinggalkan... mungkin bkn sesuatu yg payah utk aku terima bila org x mampu terima aku.. jadi sebelum kamu lupa.. utk yg terakhir kalinya.. selamat tinggal .. take care.. wish you have a happy life.. now i know why i shouldn't never take a step out from my world.. i'm a destroyer... i kill everything i touch.. i'm not only a fire.. i'm dangerous than that.. maybe alone will be the best thing to do.. astagfirullah...

i know it's hard but it's time..

  

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