Kemahuan atau Trend??

         aku keliru.. bila hati mula berbisik yg bukan perlu.. adakah benar ianya kemahuanku? atau sekadar detikan hati yg terpanggil kerana iri pada mereka yg mempunyai seseorg utk diluahkan perasaan... jika perlu kenapa masih belum ada? bermakna aku masih belum sedia.. dan kenapa hati mendesak meminta? sedang diri masih kurang serbanya? jika terlalu mahu sedang diri x mampu.. hati terlalu mendesak.. hingga fikiran menjadi sesak... perjalanan itu masih jauh.. jadi utk kau mengharapkan org lain berada selalu disamping mu.. diri , sayang kau terlalu yakin pada yg lain sebelum dirimu..
        Aku bersyukur perubahanku menjadikan aku wanita yg seperti mereka.. lembut.. sopan(masih diperbaiki...) tapi utk lemah dan bergantung pada yg lain.. kau bukan seperti itu.. selagi kaki mampu berdiri sendiri.. maka terus melangkah... jika gagal kita cari cara lain.. masih belum masa.. masih belum masa dia tiba.. kau harus terima.. dan bila sudah tiba masa .. Allah akn kirimkan dia untukmu.. kau tahukan pilihan Allah selalu yg terbaik.. kerana DIA syg padamu.. jadi redha , yakin dan tawakal..
        sekarang bukan masa mencari.. kau sudah berusaha.. tapi x berjaya.. maka sekarang masa menanti.. usah dirisau pada yg x kunjung tiba.. tapi bimbanglah pada masa hadapan yg kau masih x ketemu jalan.. biarlah mereka dengan dunia bahagia mereka bersama yg tersayang selain keluarga.. aku juga ada tersayang aku sendiri.. Allah, rasulullah, mama, abah, kakak, adik dan abg terbaru.. abg fahim.. owh x lupa DaNeko's and the mak piah family, eemm double F family and my big bro (AI) ... thanks for coming into my life and teach me what happiness are.. now.. i'm flying without wings.. far.. further than before because i have reasons to fight.. and i'm gonna be the best fighter
         i'm so afraid to fly high when i know i have to leave all of you .. so i try to stay near.. but then i realize, no matter how hard I try to hold you guys.. you'll always need to go somewhere far.. achieve your own dreams.. i can't hold you harder.. because the harder you hold a butterfly you let it die in your hand.. then you show me.. no matter how far we go.. or where we live, as long as we remember each other we still connected ... and i'm not afraid anymore.. so i will fly high too.. catch you guys.. can't really wait for the opportunity to catch me.. coz that are just too impossible.. my advice to all of you.. whenever the opportunity comes grab it.. you never know which one will change your life.. and everytime you feel down remember this.. there's someone always always always always make you as their role model.. and that's me.. so don't teach me bad bad things such as giving up or laziness .. ^__^
        or if it's too hard.. remember this.. I'll support every good things you decide for yourself.. and one day when we meet again.. i hope we will be proud with each other.. and i am proud to have you as people i love the most.. >___^ so keep trying and never give up.. cayok!!! gambatte!! aja aja fighting!!