maybe...

     just maybe, it will be nicer if i keep my mouth shut.. and just listen to all their words... understand it well and try to compare why we are so different back then.. people said (someone i didn't remember) "we understand better if we listen.." so i just wanna listen this time.. and cut out my speech.. but all i know right now.. we have to start working really hard.. because one day hak melayu akan menjadi sama rata .. well before you say i'm racist.. shut your mouth for a while and just read this...
      yeah i'm racist.. but in a good way.. racist don't mean i need to eliminate all the other race.. doesn't mean i wanna kill them, chase them away.. or conquer this land only for my race.. in my point of view or perspective.. racist mean i need to help my own race to make sure no one left behind... you know.. at my hometown.. people didn't see technology as something good.. they didn't see this modern life we have.. they never feel it.. never have a good internet line and don't even know how to used computer.. never have phone and right after they finish their study.. they work as rubber tappers... and they all malay.. and what hurt me the most.. they all islam.. yeah right.. there are some non malay that is islam.. but 90% to 98% of malay is islam right? so isn't it the same if i save malay i save islam on the same way? or.. am i wrong? and most of the help  promised by leader there just like the wind.. never stay.. never fulfill it.. so i don't believe them... but with the help of gov(the old one) some people manage to have life... and able to further their study... like my mom and dad.. you know how much i miss DR M... he such a good help.. i've meet his wife once.. and she's really nice.. she ask me to call her grandma.. well i was 10 years old that time.. and that short meeting make me respect her and her husband so much....
       sorry if this racist thing is offensive to anyone.. but i wanna hold to what my lecturer said.. that we racist in a good way.. helping other is what islam pursue us to do.. so i'm doing it.. and i am helping everyone in this case.. i don't know what the world have told you.. but i know what i see and choose what i know... and if it was a mistake.. please do correct me.. i'm not a perfect human.. we said we not racist.. but in the end... when bad things occur we blame the people due to what race they are... like cina kaki penipu.. india baran.. melayu pemalas.. we are the one that label it that way.. but to all malay if this racist thing will be eliminate.. and we start to used the equality.. please start do your best in your life.. coz one day. you'll be the one in a big trouble.. because most of malay nowaday only depend on help they've received... start to make your own business.. own your own buildings.. one day we'll lose all the help we used to get.. we always thought we prepare enough for all posibility.. but check about it again.. if we still cheating during our test back then.. we aren't prepare enough.. if we still wish for question leak from our lecturer.. we aren't prepare enough.. and if we still wish for the sympathy mark from the lecturer we aren't prepare enough.. because other people(race) work harder then us.. they memorise every single knowledge they got and they never ask extra marks from lect but do extra exercise.. if you said we've prepare enough prove me.. prove me wrong.. never cheat during test... never ask for pity mark and try to finish all the assignment without even copying.. then i will believe you.. and i'll change my mind... do it first before speak.. coz action speak louder than words...
     and me?? yeah i'm gonna start study hard.. and i was racist because i was born in environment that take serious about this.. since i was a child.. until i've grow up be a teenager.. that what i've fed with.. so.. sorry if this racist things trouble or insult anyone.. i wish malaysia be a better place to everyone.. but i guess try to help some people who never ask for your help is just like throwing your food into the pond and wish too feed the fish.. but they choose to eat what nature serve them.. i am really sorry...